I hate it. I hate, hate hate it!!!!!! I have all these girls who have tried being my “bestfriend” or are trying to “hang out” with me, yet I’m too scared. Or idk what’s wrong with me. I’m just scared of not having that “connection”. You know? Ughk I feel like a total lesbo! but Ofcourse I’m not, I’m just affectionate.
I just wish I had that friend I can be nude with, change around, skinny dip, watch movies with, be bored with, be in the computer with, get on tumblr and laugh at stupid things, cry with the notebook, and yet have so many things in common, yet have so many diffirences for us to learn from each other.
I want to be able to text her when somethings wrong. and for her to know what is trully best for me, not just tell me what everyone thinks is best for me. I want her to know me like no one does.
I’m just so hard now. I just can’t seem to let myself get “comfortable”..